new phone, new ring, lent.

I got a Blackberry. I had been whining about how badly I neeeeeeeeeded a Blackberry Storm since before they came out. I neeeeeeeeded a touch screen Verizon compatible PDA. I needed it. I needed it bad.

So last Saturday, I got one. And I love it. I love love love it. It's the best thing ever. Wow.

We picked up my wedding band last night, which reminds me of the story I promised to tell about picking out my ring. We went out looking for bands a while back and my rule was that we needed matching bands. I wanted them to be a pair and be the same and I wanted people to see them and know that we were married to each other, not anyone else in the room who was wearing a wedding band. Well the band I loved was plain white gold with a milgrain edge and Jonathan did not like the milgrain. So we looked at different things and I kept coming back to that one ring. Jonathan found a band that he liked but I was still searching. So then I decided that we could either have exact matching bands or my ring needed to have diamonds in it. So we looked at diamond bands. The problem we ran into there was that all of the bands were too short in comparison to my fairly tall ring. Insert more disappointment here.

Then one day we went to have a drink with Kait at the Backroom. For Halloween, Kait was Sarah Im-Palin (complete with stake through the heart) and she bought a ridiculous plastic-y bridal set at Claire's. She had found the wedding band portion of that set and randomly worn it out that night. I caught sight of it on her finger, snatched it, popped it on my ring finger, and looked at it in awe. I found it. It was plastic. So I did something silly. I took that ring to Helzberg and said "Do you have anything that looks like this?" Then we bought it. Now it's mine. I don't have any pictures yet so you have to trust me that it's awesome.


Lent. Ahh, lent. I have never been Catholic. The thought of giving something up for 40 days despite the fact that I'm not Catholic always seemed like a faddish thing to do. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that similar to a New Years Resolution, it's about making small changes or doing small things to make a big impact. If you do without something for 40 days, you can decide if that's something you need in your life or not. So this year, for Lent, I'm giving up feeling inadequate. This is actually something that I do a lot. I let myself feel bad or like I'm not good enough quite regularly and it's just not productive. For 40 days, any time I feel like feeling bad or not good enough, I'm going to remind myself that I gave up that self destructive habit for a small amount of time and that this is an opportunity for growth and learning and that I am more than qualified for my job, for my life and that I'm at least completely competent.

At least I'm going to until I forget that it's Lent and throw myself a pity party.